the kinu chronicles...a day in the life

Inner Peace

2012-01-29T18:35:00.005-05:00

This past friday, while waiting for Marly to get out of mid-terms I parked, took a deep breath and just took in my surroundings. There a few feet in front of my eyes was the most striking vision! I believe it a sign or a gift...very symbolic to where I am right now mentally and spiritually.

For about 5 years I wouldn't go anywhere without my camera. This past year, running on automatic pilot I stopped carrying it around. I would kick myself often because I was bound to see something beautiful, stylish or curiously odd.

As the new year ushered in I started to realize that I had lost that spark. The desire and passion to do what I love was slowly diminishing and turning into a J.O.B.!

Well, I can't let that happen...now can I?! So after time well spent in solitude and reflection I then prayed for clarity. It was at that point in time where I can say that I began to see what I needed to do and change in order to get back to that place where my passion and creativity thrived.

I have now adjusted my course and I am back on the right path which in turn adjusted my vision. I am viewing the world with a creative eye again. This image spoke to me ...the window is a view into my soul which reflects peace and creativity.

I shouldn't have left you...

2012-01-25T23:47:00.007-05:00

I have been awful towards you...

But I can promise you that I will never leave you again. I will never let you down or abandon you in order to live up to someone else's expectations of what they think that I should be doing for them. What I owe them... Yes, it is in my nature to want to please everyone and help them with their goals but at the end of the day...it is you and you alone that belongs to me. You have always been there, you have never left me (even when I didn't feed you properly). I will take care of you from now on. I can promise you that. I will feed you, nurture and support you full force. My passion, my drive, my goals.

We've come a long way baby...ain't no stoppin it now.

Love, Kinu

This time... it's for me.

2011-07-03T12:13:00.007-04:00

I am not sure exactly when my course of direction shifted, but it has done just that. For the first time in my life I am taking stronger chances and stepping out of my safe zone. I wasn't really happy with how my 40th year started. I was moving at a snail's pace, indecisive and in some cases, indifferent. That was in September.

Ten months later...I decided to launch a publication, I am moving to a state that I have ever lived in before (I have always lived in either New Jersey or South Carolina), and I am making a conscious effort to not only improve my health but expand and broaden my education and strengthen my financial status long term. I can not recall exactly when these changes started to happen...but I like it!

For many years, everything that I have ever done was to get the approval and support of my loved ones, to stay in a safe zone or to appear invisible to discourage criticism. As I wake up on this 2nd day of my "pre-vacation" (because I do vacations now) I am looking forward to pampering myself and getting ready for my Miami vacation. The road ahead is super bright ...and this time it's for ME.

joy in my heart

2009-10-12T23:50:00.010-04:00

this past weekend was the most uplifting in a long time! i had two wonderful shoots...one was with an aspiring star named hope. her eyes just shined during the photo shoot (this was her first shoot)...she followed direction well and even when she didn't understand what i wanted from her she IMPROVISED! a natural born star she is.

after the first half of the shoot was done, we drove across town to the other location and i am telling you that this little girl knew every word to maxwell's song "pretty wings"...and matched his every note.

parents listen to me...if there is anything that your child enjoys doing please embrace it. in this world there is enough disappointment, despair, bad news...enough negative forces ...we should always pave the way for our children to bring joy to our hearts.

this past saturday little miss hope put joy in my heart. hope...the name fits perfectly and you know GOD make no mistakes.

reflection

2009-09-28T20:39:00.006-04:00

so i turned the big "3-9" a week ago today. in less than a year i will be 40!...i remember when i used to think that it was downhill from 25! i spent the first half of the day in reflection, remembering the special time spent with my grandson zyaire (we call him ziggy), the various photo shoots that i did in new jersey, nyc, maryland, north carolina and south carolina, all of the new people that i have had the opportunity to meet and work with...and the end all beat all for my 38th year...meeting my fiance ahmad.

there is so much more that i want to accomplish and in a way i'm a "late bloomer" when it comes to the industry, but i am very pleased that i took that leap of faith and decided to believe in my abilities.

as i "mush on" towards 40 i actually look forward to what life has in store for me. i love the pace at which i am growing. i don't want to be "world famous" i just want to continue enjoying what i do and meeting new people with beautiful spirits along the way.

the infamous "all-nighter"

2009-05-20T01:27:00.006-04:00

so i am on the first leg of what i call an "all-nighter"...that is when i wait until every one NORMAL goes to bed and i have the house to myself in peace and quiet. i use the time to do my image editing and updates to my website. it is much easier this way since i don't have to answer the phone or stop to run an unexpected errand for someone else (my family seems to think that just because i work for myself i have 24 hr availablity to do crap for them)

it's just me and my laptop, a cup of coffee, a movie that i have seen at least a thousand times so that i don't have to actually stop and look at the screen (i can now see it in my head) and last but not least...my to do list. i often find that when i place my to do list in front of me...as soon as i scratch something off...i add 3 more frikkin things on! what is that all about?

the images that i am working on are from a photo shoot that we did in baltimore ...one scene was at the 7 eleven and it's a diva going into "pig out mode" after a night at the club...the model's name is keniesha...needless to say we received a lot of attention!

first time for everything

2009-05-19T00:11:00.006-04:00

so okay this is my first time blogging ever...so i am going to make it short....it is a little after midnight and i am just figuring out how to link my blog to my website ...and i think that i did okay but there is supposed to be a better way to do it...so until i figure it out the "forrest gump" technique will have to do.

let's see...i cheated on my diet about 7 times today ...landed a photoshoot assignment for the end of june and i managed to start my blog. mission complete.